She stood there at the beginning of her freshmen year wondering what would happen.
Would she make new friends, or would she keep the old?
She had no clue where her story would begin at all until she saw him.
Of course he was nice, but she was too smart, or so she thought.
She knew she could not trust him, and she knew exactly who he was and what made him infamous.
However, she started to talk to him and day by day she realized a lot.
She thought maybe he wasn't as bad as everyone said.
He's different than what people have told her.
So it was then that she started to put her trust in him.
Little by little she started to open up to him day by day.
Their friendship grew into a bright blossom.
She was always happy with him, and she thought he was the best friend ever.
Their feelings for stronger began to grow stronger with each day.
They both knew that this friendship had grown into something much more.
She started to fall for him, and he started to fall for her.
They shared their feelings with each other, and nothing tore them apart.
It was the first time in awhile that she truly felt happy, and she wasn't going to let anyone ruin that.
Sure they didn't get to talk everyday, but they still had a strong relationship.
Until one day when the thorn among the roses came upon it all.
Now she had a pretty off day to start, and then her "friend" said she had to tell her something terrible.
She told her "friend" to tell it to her quick because she just wanted to know.
Then the "friend" told her how the boy was telling her lies and how in reality she meant nothing to him.
She lost it and reached her breaking point.
She cut off from him like the fresh cut of a newly formed wound.
He wanted to know why; she didn't want to explain it at all because it hurt to much.
So they grew apart not to talk until a later time.
That's when the "friend" said that those words she spoke about him were lies and she was just jealous at the time.
That was when the girl realized she screwed everything up.
She trusted the words of a traitor over the words of someone she trusted her life with.
A year passed and the girl ran into the boy where she first had met him.
Their eyes locking on contact, and with both very different looks.
Her eyes were filled with sorrow and were not nearly as bright the first time she met him.
His eyes were filled with loss and questions.
Why did you leave, and why couldn't you explain it to me?
She realized she would never be able to tell him that she trusted the words of a traitor.
It would kill her to much, and she had already done so much damage.
This "friend" was never truly a friend just a traitor in disguise ready to wreck havoc wherever possible.
So remember this learn who your friends are.
Also, keep your friends close but best friends even closer.
You never know who the thorn among the roses will be.
In the end it can cost you one of the best friendships that you ever had.
--A.Mi...
Friday, December 30, 2011
Day 35
So another day has come to pass, and everything seems to be hurrying on by.
When will there be a time where everything just comes to a stop,
and where we can all realize the beauty that lies within the Earth itself.
For if we spend everyday of our lives worrying about what is going to happen next
We will never come to know the true beauty within ourselves and others.
She always wondered if anyone would realize who she was within.
She always had a smile on her face and never showed how she truly felt.
She did such things because she feared of being hurt yet again.
What if she were to fall for the wrong guy again; she could not survive something so painful.
Everyone always said she was always so easy to read, never a day could she ever lie.
But what they did not realize is that she had become so well at lying that no one could tell the difference.
Except for a select few they always knew that she was not doing okay even when she said she was fine.
They were her true friends, although there were not many they were the ones who guided her through it all.
Without them she would have been absolutely lost within the chaos of this thing we call life.
So she goes on day by day hiding her feelings and trying to get through it all.
Not wanting to bring down anyone else with her like she did before,
Because in the past she lost many people who meant a lot to her.
However, that is the past and it is too late to go back and change that all as she has said before.
On her journey she finds who belongs and wants to make the right choices.
She has learned now that it is better to say how she feels rather than hold her feelings in.
Even if it means she will get hurt again she always knows someone will be there ready to catch her,
And if they are not there she is learning to become stronger and build herself up.
For nothing can hold her down, not even the darkest of all the hours left to come.
She goes on with life with her head held high and starts to tell everyone how she feels.
She did not leave anyone out of her stories at all.
For as you can see each story that she will come to write will be how she truly feels about that person.
It will be the truth and people may get hurt, but in the end they must realize how they made her feel.
They put her down or brought her up, but in the end the story is what will tell the truth.
So as you read this and start to wonder remember if you have treated others the way you want to be treated,
Because one of the stories might just end up being about you.
--A.Mi.
When will there be a time where everything just comes to a stop,
and where we can all realize the beauty that lies within the Earth itself.
For if we spend everyday of our lives worrying about what is going to happen next
We will never come to know the true beauty within ourselves and others.
She always wondered if anyone would realize who she was within.
She always had a smile on her face and never showed how she truly felt.
She did such things because she feared of being hurt yet again.
What if she were to fall for the wrong guy again; she could not survive something so painful.
Everyone always said she was always so easy to read, never a day could she ever lie.
But what they did not realize is that she had become so well at lying that no one could tell the difference.
Except for a select few they always knew that she was not doing okay even when she said she was fine.
They were her true friends, although there were not many they were the ones who guided her through it all.
Without them she would have been absolutely lost within the chaos of this thing we call life.
So she goes on day by day hiding her feelings and trying to get through it all.
Not wanting to bring down anyone else with her like she did before,
Because in the past she lost many people who meant a lot to her.
However, that is the past and it is too late to go back and change that all as she has said before.
On her journey she finds who belongs and wants to make the right choices.
She has learned now that it is better to say how she feels rather than hold her feelings in.
Even if it means she will get hurt again she always knows someone will be there ready to catch her,
And if they are not there she is learning to become stronger and build herself up.
For nothing can hold her down, not even the darkest of all the hours left to come.
She goes on with life with her head held high and starts to tell everyone how she feels.
She did not leave anyone out of her stories at all.
For as you can see each story that she will come to write will be how she truly feels about that person.
It will be the truth and people may get hurt, but in the end they must realize how they made her feel.
They put her down or brought her up, but in the end the story is what will tell the truth.
So as you read this and start to wonder remember if you have treated others the way you want to be treated,
Because one of the stories might just end up being about you.
--A.Mi.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Day 34
Although it has been awhile since she has been on this last nothing has changed.
She still goes through the struggles of trying to figure out who belongs and who does not.
What is really a dream, and what has become a reality to her.
Some may say the answer to these questions are relatively easy she would say different.
Even though she would like to say that everything you want will fall into its place.
That is not always the reality. There will be heartbreak and you will lose people,
but everything will come together. It may not happen in a day, a week, or even a year.
The truth is it may take a few years for everything to come together the way you want it to be,
but let it be known that if you do not have a happy ending it is not the ending just quite yet.
She knows from experience that the good things in life never come easy.
Also, that through our losses and heartbreak we truly come to learn who we are.
It builds us up so that we learn who we can trust and who we can love.
For as you may or may not know life can be very deceiving.
Also, that to see the beauty in life you have to go through some of the tough things first.
But always remember that no matter how bad life gets there is always someone there to help you through it.
So keep your head held high and don't be afraid to let your emotions shine through,
because if you aren't true to yourself then you will never find out who you truly are.
--A.Mi.
She still goes through the struggles of trying to figure out who belongs and who does not.
What is really a dream, and what has become a reality to her.
Some may say the answer to these questions are relatively easy she would say different.
Even though she would like to say that everything you want will fall into its place.
That is not always the reality. There will be heartbreak and you will lose people,
but everything will come together. It may not happen in a day, a week, or even a year.
The truth is it may take a few years for everything to come together the way you want it to be,
but let it be known that if you do not have a happy ending it is not the ending just quite yet.
She knows from experience that the good things in life never come easy.
Also, that through our losses and heartbreak we truly come to learn who we are.
It builds us up so that we learn who we can trust and who we can love.
For as you may or may not know life can be very deceiving.
Also, that to see the beauty in life you have to go through some of the tough things first.
But always remember that no matter how bad life gets there is always someone there to help you through it.
So keep your head held high and don't be afraid to let your emotions shine through,
because if you aren't true to yourself then you will never find out who you truly are.
--A.Mi.
Monday, May 16, 2011
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Day 32
everyone says that it won't last,
and it will just be harder to get over it if she lets this go on.
she doesn't care though it's what makes her happy.
she could be having one of the worst days in her world,
and then his smile makes her worst day brighter.
she knows that he hurt her in the past,
and she isn't sure if she forgives him yet.
that doesn't stop her though she'll go on smiling and caring just the same.
he means the world to her, and she will do anything for him.
they've been through the same battles at different times
he understands her,
and she understands him.
they complete each other in perfect unity,
but if friendship is all that it will be she will smile.
it doesn't matter what happens
as long as they are friends and nothing changes
she will be happy
--A.Mi! (:
and it will just be harder to get over it if she lets this go on.
she doesn't care though it's what makes her happy.
she could be having one of the worst days in her world,
and then his smile makes her worst day brighter.
she knows that he hurt her in the past,
and she isn't sure if she forgives him yet.
that doesn't stop her though she'll go on smiling and caring just the same.
he means the world to her, and she will do anything for him.
they've been through the same battles at different times
he understands her,
and she understands him.
they complete each other in perfect unity,
but if friendship is all that it will be she will smile.
it doesn't matter what happens
as long as they are friends and nothing changes
she will be happy
--A.Mi! (:
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Day 31
even though everything around her seemed to come to a stop
that was when she realized something rather important
no matter how hard she would try to stop
she would never be able to forget those words that he said
he would always be her best friend, but she felt like something was missing
she had told him that she forgave him for it all,
and he doesn't have to worry about it at all.
she tried her hardest to believe that it was true,
but it wouldn't settle in her mind.
she was hurt and doesn't know how to forget what had happened.
she knows it's not good to dwell on the past,
but how can she not when that's all that is on her mind.
the days seem to go on forever in her head
constantly replaying that night over again in her head,
and how much she wanted it all to be a hallucination.
she doesn't want to tell him that she lied,
because she's never lied to him before.
the mere thought of it wandered in her mind every night.
how could she lie about the one feeling that meant the most to her
sometimes we never know why we do something,
but we still do it anyway.
it's the thoughts that come from the smallest thing that can be stuck forever in our minds.
--A.Mi....
that was when she realized something rather important
no matter how hard she would try to stop
she would never be able to forget those words that he said
he would always be her best friend, but she felt like something was missing
she had told him that she forgave him for it all,
and he doesn't have to worry about it at all.
she tried her hardest to believe that it was true,
but it wouldn't settle in her mind.
she was hurt and doesn't know how to forget what had happened.
she knows it's not good to dwell on the past,
but how can she not when that's all that is on her mind.
the days seem to go on forever in her head
constantly replaying that night over again in her head,
and how much she wanted it all to be a hallucination.
she doesn't want to tell him that she lied,
because she's never lied to him before.
the mere thought of it wandered in her mind every night.
how could she lie about the one feeling that meant the most to her
sometimes we never know why we do something,
but we still do it anyway.
it's the thoughts that come from the smallest thing that can be stuck forever in our minds.
--A.Mi....
Friday, April 22, 2011
Day 30
I'm walking on the broken path.
Trying to piece things together was never this hard before,
but I know it is going to be worth the time I'm taking.
This path leads to the happiness that I've been searching for,
and even if it takes a few years to piece the path together,
I'll take all the time it takes to do just that.
Because I've gone too long in life not knowing what it means to be happy.
I finally have the chance to figure this all out, and I'm not going to waste my time.
Sometimes, you go through life not realizing what youhave until it's gone,
but when you don't have a lot to look forward to you see all the small things.
The small things help you get through it all,
heart break, sorrow, grief, and anything that tries to break your path.
It is the light at the end of the tunnel that will make your future bright.
So, I will keep on mending my path, and walking forward.
Nothing is going to stop me today, because I'm ready for what lays ahead.
--A.Mi! :D
Trying to piece things together was never this hard before,
but I know it is going to be worth the time I'm taking.
This path leads to the happiness that I've been searching for,
and even if it takes a few years to piece the path together,
I'll take all the time it takes to do just that.
Because I've gone too long in life not knowing what it means to be happy.
I finally have the chance to figure this all out, and I'm not going to waste my time.
Sometimes, you go through life not realizing what youhave until it's gone,
but when you don't have a lot to look forward to you see all the small things.
The small things help you get through it all,
heart break, sorrow, grief, and anything that tries to break your path.
It is the light at the end of the tunnel that will make your future bright.
So, I will keep on mending my path, and walking forward.
Nothing is going to stop me today, because I'm ready for what lays ahead.
--A.Mi! :D
Monday, April 18, 2011
Day 29
I am so close to the edge,
and I think I might fall.
I don't want to fall it's happened before;
last time I got hurt a lot,
but this time it's different, at least I think and hope it is.
You are my best friend, and I don't know what I would do without you.
You are always there to listen, and I'll always be there for you.
I know we are just friends, but I think I'm starting to fall for you.
but I know if I fall that things could never be the same.
You always say nothing will affect our friendship.
You know I like you, but loving someone is something completely different.
I listen to all your stories, and you listen to mine.
I know I am starting to fall and I'm close to the deep end,
but this time I'm not afraid.
I don't know why, but it feels different,
and that's all I need to feel.
At least for now I know my heart will be safe.
--A.Mi! (:
and I think I might fall.
I don't want to fall it's happened before;
last time I got hurt a lot,
but this time it's different, at least I think and hope it is.
You are my best friend, and I don't know what I would do without you.
You are always there to listen, and I'll always be there for you.
I know we are just friends, but I think I'm starting to fall for you.
but I know if I fall that things could never be the same.
You always say nothing will affect our friendship.
You know I like you, but loving someone is something completely different.
I listen to all your stories, and you listen to mine.
I know I am starting to fall and I'm close to the deep end,
but this time I'm not afraid.
I don't know why, but it feels different,
and that's all I need to feel.
At least for now I know my heart will be safe.
--A.Mi! (:
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Day 28
A smile can mean more than one thing.
It could be that you are having the greatest day of your life,
or you could be covering up the worst day of your life.
either way it is a smile overall.
things get better, and with time you come to notice many things.
I've noticed that I have a few close friends,
and I do not need much more than them along with my family.
It is not always the biggest things in life that are the greatest.
It is often the most small thing that happens,
and that moment is truly the greatest thing to happen to you.
Without the small things who knows what could come to be.
All I know is that with them by my side nothing is going to bring me down.
I have them and that is all I need.
People who care and can make me smile and feel like i'm worth something.
That is something I have been missing for awhile,
and now that void is finally filled.
The smile on my face is real, and it is not a lie to cover up the pain!
--A.Mi!! :D
It could be that you are having the greatest day of your life,
or you could be covering up the worst day of your life.
either way it is a smile overall.
things get better, and with time you come to notice many things.
I've noticed that I have a few close friends,
and I do not need much more than them along with my family.
It is not always the biggest things in life that are the greatest.
It is often the most small thing that happens,
and that moment is truly the greatest thing to happen to you.
Without the small things who knows what could come to be.
All I know is that with them by my side nothing is going to bring me down.
I have them and that is all I need.
People who care and can make me smile and feel like i'm worth something.
That is something I have been missing for awhile,
and now that void is finally filled.
The smile on my face is real, and it is not a lie to cover up the pain!
--A.Mi!! :D
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Day 27
I realized a lot more today than the days before.
We have grown apart, and you have given me nothing.
nothing except broken promises are the memories I have of you.
A friendship that was once so strong;
it is now nothing but old faded dust brushed into the timid earth.
At first it was hard realizing what was going on,
and I did cry for you every moment of those days.
However, I have moved on now, and I have realized much more.
There is no reason for me to cry over what there was.
I was lost, afraid, and scared, and I thought there was no hope.
I was wrong; I was wrong in so many ways.
You see the greatest things aren't always the latest in life.
Z is not the strongest letter in the alphabet, I can live without it.
However, I have all I ever needed right in front of me.
The letters like D, L, E, and M get me through it all.
Broken promises are nothing but a memory of the past.
I have the future, and I can tell you one thing about it.
That fact is that it sure looks a whole lot brighter than my past!
--A.Mi!! :D
We have grown apart, and you have given me nothing.
nothing except broken promises are the memories I have of you.
A friendship that was once so strong;
it is now nothing but old faded dust brushed into the timid earth.
At first it was hard realizing what was going on,
and I did cry for you every moment of those days.
However, I have moved on now, and I have realized much more.
There is no reason for me to cry over what there was.
I was lost, afraid, and scared, and I thought there was no hope.
I was wrong; I was wrong in so many ways.
You see the greatest things aren't always the latest in life.
Z is not the strongest letter in the alphabet, I can live without it.
However, I have all I ever needed right in front of me.
The letters like D, L, E, and M get me through it all.
Broken promises are nothing but a memory of the past.
I have the future, and I can tell you one thing about it.
That fact is that it sure looks a whole lot brighter than my past!
--A.Mi!! :D
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Day 26
Another day passed her by.
Her heart was getting worse with every second.
She knew what she wanted to feel,
but she didn't know how to show it anymore.
Everything that she tried, well it never seemed to work out.
She was done trying to figure out things,
but she knew the love that she thought she knew.
Well, she didn't know it as well as she thought.
She knew there was only one person who meant the world to her,
but he would never feel the same way for her.
She said that it was okay, and they are better off as friends.
She didn't know what love was anymore; except for the love of God.
She knew that God would always be there for her no matter what,
but she lost hope in believeing that there could be someone else out there who loved her.
It takes time for a broken heart to mend,
but she couldn't handle the pain of it anymore.
All she needed was for someone to tell her that they love her,
but she stays hidden behind her smile, like she always does at best.
No one will ever see the scars, both inside and outside that haunt her.
She needs someone to feel the same way.
All she needs is love.
--A.Mi.
Her heart was getting worse with every second.
She knew what she wanted to feel,
but she didn't know how to show it anymore.
Everything that she tried, well it never seemed to work out.
She was done trying to figure out things,
but she knew the love that she thought she knew.
Well, she didn't know it as well as she thought.
She knew there was only one person who meant the world to her,
but he would never feel the same way for her.
She said that it was okay, and they are better off as friends.
She didn't know what love was anymore; except for the love of God.
She knew that God would always be there for her no matter what,
but she lost hope in believeing that there could be someone else out there who loved her.
It takes time for a broken heart to mend,
but she couldn't handle the pain of it anymore.
All she needed was for someone to tell her that they love her,
but she stays hidden behind her smile, like she always does at best.
No one will ever see the scars, both inside and outside that haunt her.
She needs someone to feel the same way.
All she needs is love.
--A.Mi.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Day 25
Another day has come and gone.
It is just like all the other ones before,
and it has the same repetitive schedule.
You get your hopes up to quick just to watch them fall,
but with time you will learn not to reflect on the past.
Just look at the now and live life to the fullest.
You only have one life to live so why not make it the best.
Now I'm not saying it's going to be easy.
There will be times when you want to quit everything,
and at those times you just want to give up hope.
You have to keep going though it will get better;
People will come into your life and leave.
You just have to realize there is a plan for everything,
and even though you may not like it there is a reason for it.
So don't give up hope and just keep smiling.
Don't be afraid to show how you feel.
You never know how it might turn out.
Just keep on going you can make it through it.
There will always be help even if you don't see it.
I'll always be here for you through thick and thin.
Our friendship will never change,
and sure you always hear that, but I mean it this time.
You will have your heart broken many times,
and it is going to hurt there is no easy way to say it.
Just plow your way through with a smile on your face and head held high.
You are always better than your worse day.
That is what makes you the strong person you are.
--A.Mi!
It is just like all the other ones before,
and it has the same repetitive schedule.
You get your hopes up to quick just to watch them fall,
but with time you will learn not to reflect on the past.
Just look at the now and live life to the fullest.
You only have one life to live so why not make it the best.
Now I'm not saying it's going to be easy.
There will be times when you want to quit everything,
and at those times you just want to give up hope.
You have to keep going though it will get better;
People will come into your life and leave.
You just have to realize there is a plan for everything,
and even though you may not like it there is a reason for it.
So don't give up hope and just keep smiling.
Don't be afraid to show how you feel.
You never know how it might turn out.
Just keep on going you can make it through it.
There will always be help even if you don't see it.
I'll always be here for you through thick and thin.
Our friendship will never change,
and sure you always hear that, but I mean it this time.
You will have your heart broken many times,
and it is going to hurt there is no easy way to say it.
Just plow your way through with a smile on your face and head held high.
You are always better than your worse day.
That is what makes you the strong person you are.
--A.Mi!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Day 24
As I sit here I wonder.
I wonder if you know it all.
Do you see that I worry everyday,
and that one day you will realize that i've been hurt one to many times.
I trust you more than anything, but I feel like I put to much on you.
I want you to know you are the reason i'm still alive.
It those random texts and messages you send me;
they show me there is hope left and someone does care.
The day they stop I don't know what will happen,
but i'm not going to sit here and start worrying about that.
I have you as a friend right now,
and even though you mean a lot more i'm not letting emotions get in the way.
we will share laughs and memories for eternity.
Our friendship will never fade, but it will only grow.
--A.Mi.
I wonder if you know it all.
Do you see that I worry everyday,
and that one day you will realize that i've been hurt one to many times.
I trust you more than anything, but I feel like I put to much on you.
I want you to know you are the reason i'm still alive.
It those random texts and messages you send me;
they show me there is hope left and someone does care.
The day they stop I don't know what will happen,
but i'm not going to sit here and start worrying about that.
I have you as a friend right now,
and even though you mean a lot more i'm not letting emotions get in the way.
we will share laughs and memories for eternity.
Our friendship will never fade, but it will only grow.
--A.Mi.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Day 23
I love you.
those three words are harder to say than you think.
it's the truth and it always will be no matter what anyone says.
we are best friends and tell each other everything.
I couldn't tell you this for one reason,
and that's why i'm writing it on here.
because I value our friendship more than anything.
I can deal with a heart full of pain.
I've done it before,
but I could never deal with loosing you.
the day when that comes will be the worst day of my life.
You know everything, and know that I like you.
I just put a smile on my face as you tell me who you like;
knowing that our friendship will keep on going.
That is why this will be my secret;
I treasure our friendship more than the sanity of my heart.
--A.Mi.
those three words are harder to say than you think.
it's the truth and it always will be no matter what anyone says.
we are best friends and tell each other everything.
I couldn't tell you this for one reason,
and that's why i'm writing it on here.
because I value our friendship more than anything.
I can deal with a heart full of pain.
I've done it before,
but I could never deal with loosing you.
the day when that comes will be the worst day of my life.
You know everything, and know that I like you.
I just put a smile on my face as you tell me who you like;
knowing that our friendship will keep on going.
That is why this will be my secret;
I treasure our friendship more than the sanity of my heart.
--A.Mi.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Day 22
I never knew what a best friend was.
That was until I met you.
You were always there for me.
No matter how big or small it was,
and even if it was late at night.
You were always there for me through everything.
No one really understood what I went through,
but you knew exactly how I felt and you never judged me.
through thick and thin we never stopped being friends.
Then a time came when things weren't going so great.
I was crawling towards the lowest point in my life,
and at that point I thought there was no turning back.
I thought I lost you and we were done,
but then you came through for me and said,
"I don't know what I would do without you" and
"you are stronger than your brain is telling you"
those words made everything brighter.
I was filled with happiness and you knew everything.
You saved me from ending it all and without those words,
well I don't know what I would have done.
You are my best friend and no matter what I will always be there for you.
From A all the way to Z.
I will always be there like you are there for me.
--A.Mi! (:
That was until I met you.
You were always there for me.
No matter how big or small it was,
and even if it was late at night.
You were always there for me through everything.
No one really understood what I went through,
but you knew exactly how I felt and you never judged me.
through thick and thin we never stopped being friends.
Then a time came when things weren't going so great.
I was crawling towards the lowest point in my life,
and at that point I thought there was no turning back.
I thought I lost you and we were done,
but then you came through for me and said,
"I don't know what I would do without you" and
"you are stronger than your brain is telling you"
those words made everything brighter.
I was filled with happiness and you knew everything.
You saved me from ending it all and without those words,
well I don't know what I would have done.
You are my best friend and no matter what I will always be there for you.
From A all the way to Z.
I will always be there like you are there for me.
--A.Mi! (:
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Day 21
she thought today was the same as all the rest
wake up go to school and then come home
school was the same as always drama,
and everyone else just causing commotions everywhere
her friends told her all about their problems,
but just for once she wished they would listen to hers
instead she walked the halls with her fake smile.
she was a shoulder to cry on and a friend to talk to,
but she needed a shoulder to cry on now.
the one guy she actually had feelings for
she knew he would never feel the same way she did for him
so she hid all her true thoughts behind her writings each one a special message
she was used to being everyone's friend and always a happy person,
but for once she wanted someone to care for her more than a friend
instead, she kept on wrting her heart out onto the paper;
she cried but she never let anyone see her upset.
she was torn apart to the bone with a heart so fragile,
she never thought her heart would ever mend.
time passed on and she still felt the pain.
thoughts run through her head, and she thinks
"why not end it now" then she realizes
she cares to much for him even if he doesn't feel the same way.
--A.Mi....
wake up go to school and then come home
school was the same as always drama,
and everyone else just causing commotions everywhere
her friends told her all about their problems,
but just for once she wished they would listen to hers
instead she walked the halls with her fake smile.
she was a shoulder to cry on and a friend to talk to,
but she needed a shoulder to cry on now.
the one guy she actually had feelings for
she knew he would never feel the same way she did for him
so she hid all her true thoughts behind her writings each one a special message
she was used to being everyone's friend and always a happy person,
but for once she wanted someone to care for her more than a friend
instead, she kept on wrting her heart out onto the paper;
she cried but she never let anyone see her upset.
she was torn apart to the bone with a heart so fragile,
she never thought her heart would ever mend.
time passed on and she still felt the pain.
thoughts run through her head, and she thinks
"why not end it now" then she realizes
she cares to much for him even if he doesn't feel the same way.
--A.Mi....
Friday, February 4, 2011
Day 20
all she wanted was a friend she could trust
she wanted someone to tell all her secrets to,
and know that they would be safe.
she wanted someone who knew how she felt.
the people she could trust well she couldn't trust them anymore.
they lied and told her every little thignn to please except one thing,
that was the most important thing of all that was the truth.
she was slowly falling to the ground with no one to catch her.
slipping back into her old habits wasn't hard for her at all.
the strong, confident, funny girl everyone knew to love.
that was all a shell deep down inside she was really fragile,
and all she needed was a little help to get through the night.
that help came in the only form she knew and that was God.
she knew she could trust him with her whole and entire heart,
and he would never judge or lie to her about anything,
God is her savior and the only one that she can only truly love.
--A.Mi!
she wanted someone to tell all her secrets to,
and know that they would be safe.
she wanted someone who knew how she felt.
the people she could trust well she couldn't trust them anymore.
they lied and told her every little thignn to please except one thing,
that was the most important thing of all that was the truth.
she was slowly falling to the ground with no one to catch her.
slipping back into her old habits wasn't hard for her at all.
the strong, confident, funny girl everyone knew to love.
that was all a shell deep down inside she was really fragile,
and all she needed was a little help to get through the night.
that help came in the only form she knew and that was God.
she knew she could trust him with her whole and entire heart,
and he would never judge or lie to her about anything,
God is her savior and the only one that she can only truly love.
--A.Mi!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Realization from the Past
I don't know where things will go from here.
what happened to the old you?
I miss that person a whole lot more,
and this person now I have no clue what they did with my best friend.
obviously it has taken him away from me,
but life goes on and I know i can make it through.
I lost you, but i'm not going to loose anyone else.
this is because things are suppossed to happen,
and maybe loosing you was one thing that had to happen
before I could ever see the brighter side of life again.
I may never know if it really had to happen,
but i know one thing is that for certainty.
it is that nothing in my past will ever stay here to haunt me in my present or future!
--A.Mi....
P.S. To readers this was actually Day 11 but it never posted so look at it as a reflection. (:
what happened to the old you?
I miss that person a whole lot more,
and this person now I have no clue what they did with my best friend.
obviously it has taken him away from me,
but life goes on and I know i can make it through.
I lost you, but i'm not going to loose anyone else.
this is because things are suppossed to happen,
and maybe loosing you was one thing that had to happen
before I could ever see the brighter side of life again.
I may never know if it really had to happen,
but i know one thing is that for certainty.
it is that nothing in my past will ever stay here to haunt me in my present or future!
--A.Mi....
P.S. To readers this was actually Day 11 but it never posted so look at it as a reflection. (:
Day 19
she is losing all hope
the days are growing longer,
and turning into years.
these years are more than she can handle.
but she knows with help she can make it through
everything is going to be okay for once
she struggles to find the words to say,
and they might not always come out right,
but she tries her best to make them sound all right.
she's finally telling the world how she feels.
she isn't going to let society ruin who she is.
she is done with trying to fit in.
she is going to find who she used to be,
and no one is going to change that.
--A.Mi!
the days are growing longer,
and turning into years.
these years are more than she can handle.
but she knows with help she can make it through
everything is going to be okay for once
she struggles to find the words to say,
and they might not always come out right,
but she tries her best to make them sound all right.
she's finally telling the world how she feels.
she isn't going to let society ruin who she is.
she is done with trying to fit in.
she is going to find who she used to be,
and no one is going to change that.
--A.Mi!
Monday, January 31, 2011
Day 18
the day came and left with the wind
many thought it was rather short to say this was the end
one though stood out from the rest and let her colors shine through
she did not let anyone stand in her way
she followed the light that shone brighter than all the stars in the sky
that light was her path for utter happiness her true bliss
the path was more pure than the snow that fell from the sky
the path cared more for her than anyone currently in her life
it showed her how to live her life for her and him
it would never stray her towards the wrong things,
but lead her towards the right things
she knew this was the right choice for once in her life
her choice to chose God as her path was the right choice overall
many thought it was rather short to say this was the end
one though stood out from the rest and let her colors shine through
she did not let anyone stand in her way
she followed the light that shone brighter than all the stars in the sky
that light was her path for utter happiness her true bliss
the path was more pure than the snow that fell from the sky
the path cared more for her than anyone currently in her life
it showed her how to live her life for her and him
it would never stray her towards the wrong things,
but lead her towards the right things
she knew this was the right choice for once in her life
her choice to chose God as her path was the right choice overall
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Day 17
today was the start of new revolutions,
as the snow fell to the ground and covered the Earth.
it was more pure than anything that has been seen in awhile.
they frolicked aroundwithout a care in the world.
no one was going to ruin the happiness that this night brought with it.
the day slowly drifted into night as the sun set;
the moon emerged as a brilliant and radiant light.
their happiness wasnever once shattered.
memories and laughter were shared between everyone.
they were inseparable, and the closest of friends.
smiles were plastered onto their faces,
but they were different this time they werenot fake.
they were the most real smiles they all had in awhile.
they found their utter bliss and would live it out like the perfect dream.
It was there happiness and joy that showed others;
peace can exist in a world like the one we live in today.
as the snow fell to the ground and covered the Earth.
it was more pure than anything that has been seen in awhile.
they frolicked around
no one was going to ruin the happiness that this night brought with it.
the day slowly drifted into night as the sun set;
the moon emerged as a brilliant and radiant light.
their happiness was
memories and laughter were shared between everyone.
they were inseparable, and the closest of friends.
smiles were plastered onto their faces,
but they were different this time they were
they were the most real smiles they all had in awhile.
they found their utter bliss and would live it out like the perfect dream.
It was there happiness and joy that showed others;
peace can exist in a world like the one we live in today.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Day 16
When everything was at her lowest time she was lost.
she didn't know what to do or what was ahead.
Then when she thought she lost her best friend.
He was there for her as he said he would always be.
She was alwayson the edge though,
to much hurt from previous trials and tribulations she never knew who to trust.
she didn't want to tell him she thought their friendshipwouldn't last,
but she thought about it every night for a long time.
Then one day thatall changed.
He finally told her what was on his mind,
and she listened to every word he had said.
Their friendship grew strong and it was almost inseparable.
Only the times could tell if this friendship would stand the test of times.
If it didn't well who ever wants to think about the ifs and but's.
she only hopes for the best and that she won't be hurt in the end.
she knew this time thought she wouldn't get hurt.
she knew this time it was different!
--A.Mi! (:
she didn't know what to do or what was ahead.
Then when she thought she lost her best friend.
He was there for her as he said he would always be.
She was always
to much hurt from previous trials and tribulations she never knew who to trust.
she didn't want to tell him she thought their friendship
but she thought about it every night for a long time.
Then one day that
He finally told her what was on his mind,
and she listened to every word he had said.
Their friendship grew strong and it was almost inseparable.
If it didn't well who ever wants to think about the ifs and but's.
she only hopes for the best and that she won't be hurt in the end.
she knew this time thought she wouldn't get hurt.
she knew this time it was different!
--A.Mi! (:
Day 15
I learned never to give up hope.
You showed me that there was something worth living for.
When I realized that was true,
nothing ever stopped me from testing the limits.
I had a dream that I hoped would come true.
time passed by and it started to get harder to believe this could ever happen.
my hopes were slowy going down the drain with my dream.
The day was coming and I had given up all hope,
but then you came and you showed me the way.
You led me away from the darkness and into the light.
You showed me who I could trust and who could be followed.
Most of all you showed me that you are the greatest,
and I can put all my love and hope into you and you will never leave me.
Without you God I don't know what I would have done during those times.
You helped me when only a few people were there.
I'm truly grateful for that and you will always be in my heart,
and I will always remember you when I am stuck in times like those again.
I live for you and no one else.
--A.Mi!
You showed me that there was something worth living for.
When I realized that was true,
nothing ever stopped me from testing the limits.
I had a dream that I hoped would come true.
time passed by and it started to get harder to believe this could ever happen.
my hopes were slowy going down the drain with my dream.
The day was coming and I had given up all hope,
but then you came and you showed me the way.
You led me away from the darkness and into the light.
You showed me who I could trust and who could be followed.
Most of all you showed me that you are the greatest,
and I can put all my love and hope into you and you will never leave me.
Without you God I don't know what I would have done during those times.
You helped me when only a few people were there.
I'm truly grateful for that and you will always be in my heart,
and I will always remember you when I am stuck in times like those again.
I live for you and no one else.
--A.Mi!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Day 14
time has changed, and I just about thought it was all gone
then you came around and showed me you were here until the end
no matter what I told you, you never left my side.
you were one of the only people I knew that I could trust.
It happened again when I lost all my hope.
weeks passed by, and I just wanted to hear you say...
don't worry everything is going to be okay.
those days turned into months or what seemed like it.
I was just about ready to give up there again,
but then you came and saved me like always.
without you I wonder what would've happened to me.
Would I still be here now?
I won't have to think about that though.
I'm never leaving you as long as you never leave me.
we are best friends stuck in this journey.
until something happens or thestrings get disconnected,
but until that comes i'll always be here for you.
--A.Mi...
then you came around and showed me you were here until the end
no matter what I told you, you never left my side.
you were one of the only people I knew that I could trust.
It happened again when I lost all my hope.
weeks passed by, and I just wanted to hear you say...
don't worry everything is going to be okay.
those days turned into months or what seemed like it.
I was just about ready to give up there again,
but then you came and saved me like always.
Would I still be here now?
I won't have to think about that though.
I'm never leaving you as long as you never leave me.
we are best friends stuck in this journey.
until something happens or the
but until that comes i'll always be here for you.
--A.Mi...
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Day 13
people say things change for a reason
weather it is a good or bad reason
I used to never want to believe in this at all,
but I know this is true now, and I see what they all were trying to say
things change, and at first it may be hard to cope with,
but in the end and with time it will eventually get better
don't ever give up any bit of hope that you have inside.
because one day you will need that to get through something
somethign much bigger, and harder to get over.
what that is I guess you have to figure that out for yourself.
all I can say is that wounds hurt when they are opened,
and if you baby them they will always hurt.
You have to let them get better on their own.
forget abotu whatever is hurting you, and put it behind you.
trust me in the end it will be worth it!
--A.Mi!! (:
weather it is a good or bad reason
I used to never want to believe in this at all,
but I know this is true now, and I see what they all were trying to say
things change, and at first it may be hard to cope with,
but in the end and with time it will eventually get better
don't ever give up any bit of hope that you have inside.
because one day you will need that to get through something
somethign much bigger, and harder to get over.
what that is I guess you have to figure that out for yourself.
all I can say is that wounds hurt when they are opened,
and if you baby them they will always hurt.
You have to let them get better on their own.
forget abotu whatever is hurting you, and put it behind you.
trust me in the end it will be worth it!
--A.Mi!! (:
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Day 12
so it's a new year and things have changed
2010 taught me how to be stronger and grow with the help of god
it also taught me that I will never be alone no matter what
I learned who matters to me and who doesn't
now 2011 is here and I'm ready for change a good change
I'm going to live life for me and god no one else
you will lose and gain, but in the end that is life
it's not always good, but the journey to the end is well worth it.
you will make a lot of new friends and try a lot of new things
just remember everyone who is there for you and who hasn't hurt you
this year is going to be new and fresh just like every year is
but it's the year that could be different by a lot this year
you never know what can happen
you can fall in love, but you can fall out of it.
you can win, or you can lose.
you can sit here and keep thinking about the what if's,
but come on where is that going to get you.
think about the now, and forget the past.
trust me I learned a lot from doing that,
and the view in life now isn't to bad (:
--A.Mi!!! :D
2010 taught me how to be stronger and grow with the help of god
it also taught me that I will never be alone no matter what
I learned who matters to me and who doesn't
now 2011 is here and I'm ready for change a good change
I'm going to live life for me and god no one else
you will lose and gain, but in the end that is life
it's not always good, but the journey to the end is well worth it.
you will make a lot of new friends and try a lot of new things
just remember everyone who is there for you and who hasn't hurt you
this year is going to be new and fresh just like every year is
but it's the year that could be different by a lot this year
you never know what can happen
you can fall in love, but you can fall out of it.
you can win, or you can lose.
you can sit here and keep thinking about the what if's,
but come on where is that going to get you.
think about the now, and forget the past.
trust me I learned a lot from doing that,
and the view in life now isn't to bad (:
--A.Mi!!! :D
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