Day 21

she thought today was the same as all the rest
wake up go to school and then come home
school was the same as always drama,
and everyone else just causing commotions everywhere
her friends told her all about their problems,
but just for once she wished they would listen to hers
instead she walked the halls with her fake smile.
she was a shoulder to cry on and a friend to talk to,
but she needed a shoulder to cry on now.
the one guy she actually had feelings for
she knew he would never feel the same way she did for him
so she hid all her true thoughts behind her writings each one a special message
she was used to being everyone's friend and always a happy person,
but for once she wanted someone to care for her more than a friend
instead, she kept on wrting her heart out onto the paper;
she cried but she never let anyone see her upset.
she was torn apart to the bone with a heart so fragile,
she never thought her heart would ever mend.
time passed on and she still felt the pain.
thoughts run through her head, and she thinks
"why not end it now" then she realizes
she cares to much for him even if he doesn't feel the same way.
--A.Mi....

Day 20

all she wanted was a friend she could trust
she wanted someone to tell all her secrets to,
and know that they would be safe.
she wanted someone who knew how she felt.
the people she could trust well she couldn't trust them anymore.
they lied and told her every little thignn to please except one thing,
that was the most important thing of all that was the truth.
she was slowly falling to the ground with no one to catch her.
slipping back into her old habits wasn't hard for her at all.
the strong, confident, funny girl everyone knew to love.
that was all a shell deep down inside she was really fragile,
and all she needed was a little help to get through the night.
that help came in the only form she knew and that was God.
she knew she could trust him with her whole and entire heart,
and he would never judge or lie to her about anything,
God is her savior and the only one that she can only truly love.
--A.Mi!

Realization from the Past

I don't know where things will go from here.
what happened to the old you?
I miss that person a whole lot more,
and this person now I have no clue what they did with my best friend.
obviously it has taken him away from me,
but life goes on and I know i can make it through.
I lost you, but i'm not going to loose anyone else.
this is because things are suppossed to happen,
and maybe loosing you was one thing that had to happen
before I could ever see the brighter side of life again.
I may never know if it really had to happen,
but i know one thing is that for certainty.
it is that nothing in my past will ever stay here to haunt me in my present or future!
--A.Mi....
P.S. To readers this was actually Day 11 but it never posted so look at it as a reflection. (:

Day 19

she is losing all hope
the days are growing longer,
and turning into years.
these years are more than she can handle.
but she knows with help she can make it through
everything is going to be okay for once
she struggles to find the words to say,
and they might not always come out right,
but she tries her best to make them sound all right.
she's finally telling the world how she feels.
she isn't going to let society ruin who she is.
she is done with trying to fit in.
she is going to find who she used to be,
and no one is going to change that.
--A.Mi!