Day 33

He said he would never want to hurt her,
but inside she feels more pain than anything she has ever felt before.
So, she'll walk with a smile on her face and head held high,
because she could never show him how she truly feels.
The fear of rejection and pain is just too much to bear.
Oh how she wishes she could go back in time
To go to find a place where nothing but happiness was found.
However, she will not go to find that place, because for the first time
she can show to the world how she truly feels.
She is fragile and has been broken many times,
but yet she does not want to give up hope this time.
She thinks can be different,
but as of lately she does not know where anything is going.
Only time can tell if her heart will mend or only break more.
All she knows is that she will not let it happen again.
She is tired of having to hide her emotions like nothing is wrong at all;
next time it happens she is going to let all her tears out and tell him what's wrong.
--A.Mi....

Day 32

everyone says that it won't last,
and it will just be harder to get over it if she lets this go on.
she doesn't care though it's what makes her happy.
she could be having one of the worst days in her world,
and then his smile makes her worst day brighter.
she knows that he hurt her in the past,
and she isn't sure if she forgives him yet.
that doesn't stop her though she'll go on smiling and caring just the same.
he means the world to her, and she will do anything for him.
they've been through the same battles at different times
he understands her,
and she understands him.
they complete each other in perfect unity,
but if friendship is all that it will be she will smile.
it doesn't matter what happens
as long as they are friends and nothing changes
she will be happy
--A.Mi! (:

Day 31

even though everything around her seemed to come to a stop
that was when she realized something rather important
no matter how hard she would try to stop
she would never be able to forget those words that he said
he would always be her best friend, but she felt like something was missing
she had told him that she forgave him for it all,
and he doesn't have to worry about it at all.
she tried her hardest to believe that it was true,
but it wouldn't settle in her mind.
she was hurt and doesn't know how to forget what had happened.
she knows it's not good to dwell on the past,
but how can she not when that's all that is on her mind.
the days seem to go on forever in her head
constantly replaying that night over again in her head,
and how much she wanted it all to be a hallucination.
she doesn't want to tell him that she lied,
because she's never lied to him before.
the mere thought of it wandered in her mind every night.
how could she lie about the one feeling that meant the most to her
sometimes we never know why we do something,
but we still do it anyway.
it's the thoughts that come from the smallest thing that can be stuck forever in our minds.
--A.Mi....